Last Cigarrette

[mundens]

Flame flares briefly
Just enough to ignite
The cigarette in question
cylindrical and white

Smoke trickles from my lips
rising to the cold grey sky
Ember glows so brightly
as I hold it to my eye

Feel the heat against my cheek
a stray hair sizzles for a while
The only heat that's left me
since the lost warmth of her smile

The black trees are silhouettes
against amber clouds in the dark
Remembering them in dappled sunlight
where she and I left our mark

The stars fall down like raindrops
and make ripples in my head
In this world of lust and lonely
where I'm left to make my bed.

And would anybody notice
if I just let it all slip away?
Left this useless husk lying
to be found some other day

Lights flicker thru the foliage,
A sign of those who hide inside
And I stand alone with nothing
but fierce and bloody wulfen pride

I don't want to be the loser
please don't let them see me cry
But it's hard to keep on burning
when they've all said goodbye

Thoughts chase tails and circle
spiralling out of control
into the awful monstrous gravity
of that massive black soul

Pull back from welcoming abyss
Try to find wonder in the stars
feel the life go on around me
hear the music of the cars

Flick the butt to the darkness
and it arcs a trail of fire
hits a branch and crumbles
to the ground, to expire.

(Well, it seemed like a good idea at the time.)

Comments

[holding-pattern.livejournal.com]

Livejournal cuts and edits in the morning huh?

*hugs* (real ones on Saturday)

[mundens.livejournal.com]

Well, I'd always intended to put the lj-cuts in, and noticed in the morning I hadn't.

But yeah, reading it again in the morning made me feel a bit self conscious.

Thanks for the concern, it was just a momentary late night melancholy, and I'm much brighter today. It was a way of purging the system.

This morning the view across the harbour to the long white cloud below the Wainui hills, and the sparkling water (with dolphins according to Evie, though I didn't see them) was uplifting.

[giffydoll.livejournal.com]

Gah!I missed dolphins in the harbour. Trust me not to check today.

[yeldarb-smaillw.livejournal.com]

Nicely written - but far more verbose than Damien's poetry (http://www.livejournal.com/community/game_ic/9481.html#cutid1)!

[mashugenah.livejournal.com]

Poetry isn't something I encourage as a rule, but yours was actually readable. :)