All Done.

[mundens]

So for those who don't read seraphs_folly's journal, we're over.

After a lovely time in Hamner last week, and another lovely time at the cottage with the Grays over the weekend, during which I got to wish bigby_wolf happy birthday, and didn't end up getting to vizi's farewell party, somehow it all fell apart on Tuesday.

It took until late last night for me to give up trying to fix it. It was sudden, unexpected, and has completely drained me. I'll be spending some time trying to get over it.

I think there's something wrong with me, both of my only two long term lovers have said they didn't want partners and sex after leaving me. I suppose two doesn't really constitute a pattern, but it's worrying.

Now, once again, I have to find some reason to live, some reason to bother getting up and going to work and paying for a house I don't want. One again I have nothing to look forward too, and I'm almost two years older and uglier than the last time it happened.

And then to top it all off, just as seraphs_folly made her post, Ele randomly turned up with wasup_bro. You can imagine I wasn't particularly pleased to see her. But Ben was with her and so he got the dinosaur I bought him while in Hamner.

I've showered and shaved, and trimmed my beard, a sort of ritualistic "washing that (wo)man right out of my hair" thing i suppose.

I'm going to go buy fish and chips for tea, chocolate, maybe a bottle of whiskey, and go sing myself hoarse to music like Bridget Jones did.

Music is your only friend
Until the end

Comments

[cha0sslave.livejournal.com]

Well you DO have your kids, and they're alright aren't they?

[mundens.livejournal.com]

True, though they're basically old enough to look after themselves now, they don't really need me around.

But it's a good point, thanks!

[ferrouswheel.livejournal.com]

Yeah we do :)

*hug*

[mundens.livejournal.com]

Just wanted to say thanks for saying that.

[seraphs-folly.livejournal.com]

>>I think there's something wrong with me, both of my only two long term lovers have said they didn't want partners and sex after leaving me.

I think its normal break-up stuff. That or youve ruined us for other men *teases gently*

[mundens.livejournal.com]

Yeah, the latter is what I was afraid of.
:)

[tcpip.livejournal.com]

Sorry to hear it. It's never easy. Be happy with the wisdom that they make their own choices of their own will and with their own reasons.

[mundens.livejournal.com]

thx. And a very good point too. Wouldn't want it any other way really.

[adrexia.livejournal.com]

Ahh... that sucks. :(

*hugs*

[mundens.livejournal.com]

thx, and sorry for delaying the game, I just don't think I'll be up to playing Lex this weekend.

[adrexia.livejournal.com]

That's pretty understandable I think. So'k I have assignments to do anyway. :)

[superlate.livejournal.com]

Completely understandable. Thanks for letting me know. Keep well and good I hope

[stephanie-pegg.livejournal.com]

That's a shame. [Hugs]

[mr-orgue.livejournal.com]

Be well.

[jenni-talula.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[mashugenah.livejournal.com]

:( I'm sorry to hear all this. :( If you need any help, just let me know.

[sokky.livejournal.com]

Sorry to hear it :(
*hugs*

[argentbear.livejournal.com]

So sorry to hear that.

*hugs*

[mundens.livejournal.com]

Thx man, your hugs are luvverly!

[debxena.livejournal.com]

I am sorry to hear this hon. *hugs*

[ucav.livejournal.com]

Sorry to hear this. Breakups are never easy :o(

But, as Monty Python would say "... always look on the bright side of life ..."
You have a roof over your head (increasing numbers of kiwis will find this difficult) and you've got great, grown up kids who are achieving great things.

Things will get better, eh?

[mundens.livejournal.com]

Thanks man, and yeah, looking at the responses to this post I also have som lovely friends.

[danjite.livejournal.com]

Sigh... congrats on your new opportunitiee and condolences for the reason.

Only been in your LJ for, what, two weeks now?

I will generally be upbeat about what we in Yiddish call "tsuris".

I'd buy ya' a pint were I there, but I ain't, so it wil have to wait for next summer.

[mundens.livejournal.com]

Thanks. I'll look forward to the potential pint! :)

[bigby-wolf.livejournal.com]

*Hugs*

And a big thank you for coming to see me.

[mundens.livejournal.com]

Thx, and a shame we couldn't spend more time

[elfs.livejournal.com]

Bummer, dude. Sorry to hear about that. Look on the bright side: two of my former lovers have become committed lesbians (one, I think, because she really does like women; the other because she doesn't like men and there's only one alternative).

[mundens.livejournal.com]

Heh! Sorry to grin at your past misfortune, but it makes me feel better to know I'm not the only with similar affects!

[amphigori.livejournal.com]

I'm really sorry to hear this. :(

All my internet hugs belong to you.

[mundens.livejournal.com]

Thanks, I feel smothered in internet hugs now! :)

[lamprey.livejournal.com]

Ah bugger!

Sorry to hear it man, I know it must suck. We'll have to go out for dinner again sometime.

Things will get better..

[mundens.livejournal.com]

thx, I'm sure things will get better and dinner would be great sometime.

I may actually have more time for that sort of thing now! :)

[lamprey.livejournal.com]

Yeah man! Keep yourself busy, that's the best thing.

[evie-fae.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Jarratt and I are still just around the corner if you want to hang out. And you don't need to be in the depths of despair to accept that offer, no matter what you might think.

[mundens.livejournal.com]

Thanks hon, it's lovely to know the two of you are there, but right now I'm really just feeling like pottering around the house getting things done slowly, relaxing into my own space.

I don't think either Sally or I want this to be a complete break, without getting into details, it's more of a "lets just be friends" thing for now.

[lobelet.livejournal.com]

And lots of hugs from me as well.